Its an interesting day.. one of my favorite humans was born on this day, and a service I've wanted to bring into this world is coming to fruition.
For the past 20 years I've been a mother, a teacher, a guide, a servant, a nurturer.. and I know those moments will be a part of my heart and soul forever. In some ways a knowing that it was a reason for existing during a time and season. But on this day I also realize that I have fulfilled those duties and I sense the words "well done, good and faithful servant" in my spirit. Like I've been released from the role of "mom"..
Oh I know, I know. A mothers work is never done (May it never be!!). And a child will always need their mother. But when they shift out of those teen years and become young adults, you really do have to give them their wings to fly. Wings to explore where the winds of change want to take them. What vista's and vast oceans await them, what mountaintops can they climb? We can give them all the tools they need - to the best of our abilities, but there comes a day when you watch them walk away and know they will never come back as your little one clinging to your skirt hem. Did I do OK? Did I raise them right? Can they manage on their own? Did I totally fuck them up with my own issues and shortcomings? Its in these moments of musings that I know these are normal questions and every mothers greatest fears. And so we release.. release the grip we've had on them. Release the grip of fear and lean into trusting. Trusting that Spirit has a plan for them - written in the Cosmo's.
They have been equipped with gifts and talents beyond what ever we as mere humans could have taught or enabled them with. They have been endowed with energy and spirit and frequencies and a soul song that reaches far above and beyond the voice of a human on earth. As much as we see our children as "ours" they never belonged to us. Their soul could never be owned. Never be contained by the trappings of our human frailties and desires and meager hopes and expectations. They were meant for so much more.. And so are you.
Its with these thoughts I come to this place of my own becoming. A place that hundreds of thousands of women have come to before me, and hundreds of thousands will after.. Who am I now? What's next? How do we get beyond our own fears and step into what we are becoming? Is there a label I can attach on me now? What are we when we are ... no longer that? Our own spiritual walk, personal experiences and astrological chart lay the blueprint for where to go next.
Spirit wants humans to be healed and quit living in bondage to the stories we tell about ourselves. It requires us to take courage and step with bold steps toward our own next chapters. Allowing the transformation to occur. Your own wings of new beginnings unfurling to reveal a new creation, for every chapter is certainly a new cycle. One born of maturity and wisdom. One born of many little deaths, and many little rebirths. Do we have to have all the answers? No.. But we are required to walk by faith believing a new journey awaits. The Fool of the Tarot, the Hero of your Journey - beginning the cycle of time once again. Stronger. Wiser. Ready. Saying yes to the epic journey, even if you don't know the next steps. Saying yes to doing it on purpose. Saying yes to beginning anew. Saying yes to the call of your own heart song. Trusting that as you step into your true self - or maybe even your next self, that behind whatever you think that is, is a Higher Self calling your forth.
And so it begins. Again. something new. The culmination of all I've learned as a mother, daughter, wife, friend, sister. The wounded healer, the seeker, the teacher, the mentor. All the hats and all the roles. A spiritual journey of wonder, excavation, evolution and transformation. Becoming "mom" to the many instead of just the one, to those trying to find their voice and find their way. Find their purpose, their courage. Its written in the stars you know. All the potentials and possibilities just waiting for you to discover and realize. The Earth reveals the cycles of time and Spirit invites you to explore the Stars of your own Destiny at every cycle. Im so excited to walk this journey with you.
Much Love,
Bobbie
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